Tuesday, July 17, 2007

the process of learning

It's hard to call these failures when in fact you learn from them. I was doing well right up until Sunday night. I never got over my fatigue and feeling like crap, which is all very expected. Why did I stop this time? I don't know, I was feeling pain - too much I suppose. it's easy to start justifying why you should stop at times like these, you're at your most vulnerable. I let my mind get the better of me.

I tried to keep thing under control when I decided I needed to loosen the strings and I have maintained a pretty descent level of nutrition. But obviously I'm no longer maintain the ultra low carb. I'm not going to sit here and gripe about how 'my body do well with only meat' or 'low carb is unhealthy' or 'going this extreme is not the right approach' obviously there is wieght to each one of those arguments, but how long can that go on? we always reach back for our comfort zone when the pain kicks in.

There has to be lessons learned when these experiences happen. I look at these failures, and I certainly have no problem labeling this as such, as opportunities to learn. so what did I learn from this? that running the same pattern and consistently failing is not working. try something different. what is that 'different'? not sure. But I know there is some serious value in stripping out the 'bad' carbs. but all the carbs...not exactly working for me. I think carb cycling makes sense, but then again so does fasting, and then again so does counting calories. quite a few approaches to think about. but the one that I really think is the right approach, at least for me, is making small changes over a long period of time. And ridding out the crap-carbs. And exercising. And drinking water.

It really comes down to what works best for you. and sometimes identifying what 'doesn't' work is the best way to discover what 'does' work.